20th of the Month
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Happy 1st MonthSary to us!
Both of us were working on the Morning Shift on 20th October 2009. Afterwhich, I still had to stay 4 Hours of Over Time. Thus he went home first, and got himself a short haircut which I guess he's complaining he's looking like a nerd now. LOL!
After work, I got a lift from Hamid to Redhill, and Peter gave me a lift (cab) to City Hall to meet him. Reached there around 6:15pm and we went for a dinner at Shoduko at Raffles Link.
Dear bought me a cute pink little bear, sitting on a flower pot! So sweet... Thank you lots!!!
PS: It's not too childish for me. =P
Our Special Day: ❤20092009❤
♥ 10:00 AMIt's Us =)
Sunday, October 18, 2009
At ECP cycling on the 17th October 2009
First time at his place
♥ 10:00 AM
This is how i de-stress...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Some things happen in a way that no one ever guessed how or why it happened. I won't write it down here cos I'm not the victim. But I really understand how you felt yesterday night as you knew I also came across something similar before too. Although we both knew there are differences in both incidents.
As I told you, don't worry about me crying over such things as I'm used to crying out in order to relieve myself whenever I feel upset or angry. It has been and I think it shall still be my way of de-stressing. Only then will you guys still be able to see the always bright and cheerful me. Therefore I really can't promise you that I won't cry again. Unless you want to see a dull and unhappy me on usual days? I guess probably not. I'm sure no one in the right mind would want to see me in that way. I can't even imagine seeing myself unable to laugh out loud. I'd probably suffocate till death! Haha...
But I'm really sorry that you have to console me even when you're feeling down. It's such a contradicting thing. I should be the one consoling and bringing you out to see happy lights again, but instead you have to talk me through to stop me crying. Really sorry...
At this moment, a sentence kept hovering in my mind. "We've been together for a month but yet you've been crying lots of times." This statement was mentioned by you. I'm really sorry, but I really do enjoy being with you. And most importantly, I'm really happy when I'm with you. I'm really glad I've got you with me. So Dear, don't keep having the thoughts that I'm unhappy when I'm with you, that's why I cry. That's not the reason. I'm simply someone who gets contented easily, who laughs easily and cries easily too. That's me. Will you still like me this way?
Well, KBox is your way of de-stressing? Haha, alright we'll go there some time during one of our Rest day on a weekday okay? I know I'm a sua-gu cos I don't go to this place, and have never been to this place before. Just hope you don't mind. =)
♥ 6:33 PM
What can "Shopping" Lead to?
Monday, October 12, 2009
Looking at this word "Shopping" carefully, I think it's been a really long time since I really went to shop. And I mean really shop as in you go somewhere, walk around and actually buy something back. I guess it's been more then 3 months that I have yet to go on a real shopping trip. The word "Shopping" led me thinking into many things. Things that have no direct link with shopping.
Frankly speaking, like most ladies do, I feel happy after a round of shopping. So now I'm asking myself, "Why have you taken a long break from shopping?". Well, I would say it's probably cos on top of the weird working shift patterns, I still have to put time aside for schools and studies. In addition to this, most of my Off/Rests days are now spent with him. I'm definitely not complaining about spending time with him, cos I'm more then willing and happy to spend time with him. So please don't get me wrong. It's just that now I have to juggle my time among so many things, I don't really have the mood to shop as well. Reason being, I realise I have lesser and lesser chance to wear/use what I had always liked to shop for.
Suddenly I recalled something which some one asked me recently, "Why do you want to get yourself in this shyt?". My answer's still standing firmly on the ground. It's not a question about why I wanted to get myself in such situation. It's a matter of fate I strongly believe in. When it's time, it'll come no matter what. If it's meant to be yours, no matter how hard you tried to discard it, it'll still be yours. No point trying to hold on tightly to something when it's not meant to be this way.
So now I've been thinking, am I holding on to him too tightly that I'm not giving both of us gaps for breathing? Why do I always have to cry and make him feel bad. Some times, I really do hate myself.
♥ 11:39 AM
I really do
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Hmm, no particular reason for blogging today. But I just felt like writing something down somewhere. Actually started a little diary last month, but kind of gave up after writing half an entry. Guess I'm just too lengthy and detailed that's why I can't even stand myself having to write everything down on a little book.
Some times, I just felt that having a little pocket diary is not a bad idea at all, cos that's the only tiny space where no one knows how I really feel. Writing them down in a blog is like advertising to the whole world. I think I'm just in an ironic position now. I really wanted to write down my feelings somewhere, but I don't know where is the best place. I don't really want others to know, but I do want someone to know them. Guys, please ignore me if you think I'm being emo here. Honestly speaking, I think I kept having emo feelings recently, which I know I seldom do. I really don't know why, but I just wish I will learn to be stronger.
I really want to fulfill my promise to him that I will not cry, and that I will learn to be strong. But I'm just someone who is really weak and soft inside, despite the bubbly and cheerful me you guys always see. I cry easily. Little little things that makes me sad, or things that touches my heart, tears will just drop down naturally. I really can't seem to help it.
Right now, I really do miss him a lot. Was on the phone with him after work just now, and now I don't get to talk to him or see him online. Most probably he had fell asleep or he's not free as my sms wasn't replied to. I just want to tell him, I really miss you and I worry about you. Dear, I know I promised you to confide in you whenever I'm feeling down, and not to hide anything from you. So I'm going to let you know, I cried again while writing this post. I'm thinking of you...
♥ 6:42 PM
